Retire at last..

I'm finally 'retired' today. Everything was surprise today including myself. It is definitely one of my most memorable day of my life. Yes, i'm glad that i finally can considered myself RETIRED from the Prefect Board after becoming one for about 10 years since primary school. It was never an easy job, yet i have to admit that there are few things i'm really gonna miss about being a prefect. Everyone keep saying, " Mesti u will miss rehat awal this, kan?" hahahahah,no doubt, that is one of the reasons. But it's more than that. It have given me chance to be friends with a lot of people with different characters and attitudes, and have this special bond with some of them. Now i understand what the previous seniors feel when i am one. I was grateful that my beloved family were able to show up to be there for me. Even Eric skipped school today. It was a simple ceremony of Prefect's Installation of 2009/2010. Of course i'm not one of the prefects to be installed. LOL
I just finished doing my speech the night before, 'cause i was really not sure on how to express everything on one speech especially in Malay. Yet, when i was doing it, i was inspired about a lot of things merely my family and my 'sasatness' friends. When i was finally done with it, i was satisfied with it, and just waiting for the next day to let it all out. But then when i was there on that stage, suddenly i feel the nerve. Yet, i know i done my best in doing my job as headgirl and that moment, i just take a deep breath and let it all out. I know that a lot of people was surprised when i utter those word, but then it is one courageous speech that i've done and i'm proud of it. It was simply something sincere . that comes from heart. Maybe I'm just too outspoken and bold, but i don't care about what people think that time. So, now i'm officially retired with the rest of the Form 5 prefects and tomorrow, i will be going to any other school just like any other students.
All the prefects. Retired, continuing service and the newbies. Headgirl of 2009/2010, Seri leading the vow.

While waiting for the ceremony to start..

Pic taken from Eric.. The 'retired' ones

Giving candle to and receiving flower from Seri.. Bahh at last time for me to pass the job..

Smiling at Eric that time.

Giving my memorable speech. Ceh

After the ceremony. Group photo.

Daddy, mommy, me and Eric.

Well i'm sure gonna miss having duty with a lot of people but it's more to a sigh of relieved as i'm free from the school management stuff. I'm glad to write down messages for the people that i sayang. I'm also happy that i got to thank a lot of people during my speech especially, my parents, Eric, my friends and 5ST. Everyone realise that Eric surprised to hear his name mentioned during my speech. He is my only brother and who always support me in everything i do. I hope Eric didnt read this owh.Thanks to Jane for her sweet message, to Sulina for your gift and message, to Konea for the sweet chocolates, Asyiqin for the lovely flowers and all of you for pure friendship towards me. I'll treasure it, i always will. Owh ya, and to Idiot daI, thanks for everything. I will always remember it no matter what.

Also i'm really speechless with the party that my class 5ST made for me. You guys are awesome.

I sure wish all the best to Seri, Mimi and Sam and the Prefectorial Board of 2009/2010 in their duty.

Lastly, thanks everyone for your love today and now i am officially an average student.

P/s: A poem that i'm sure some people remember

We all have one life to live
One heart to beat
One chance to live our dream
To live like we want it to be
We will make many choices along the way
That’s why we have Friends that will help
Us on our way
Day to day, Year to year
There are many hardships along the way
So always carry a smile every which way
Because with one smile you can brighten someone’s day
And make it a cheerful year Just one chance to make an impression on someone
So be good to all you see for someday
They may become a boss to you and me
I do not know what a waits ahead of me
And what surprises may come my way
But I’m sure I will live a joyful life

Being random feels good..

I never really update this blog because lately, i never know what to talk about. I always lost in my own thoughts in class, when i try to sleep, in the car. In short word, everywhere. I've been thinking too much about every single thing, even the simplest to the biggest possiblities that could ever happen to me and my life. There's no doubt that there's a lot of things that crossed my mind. I never could guess why that happen.

I'm not bluffing when i said this is my toughest year. And its not even particularly about SPM. SPM just part of it. Everything seems pretty hard now and I couldn't even explain what i mean by that. See?? Everything in me seems pretty tangled up and it's just way, way to complex to sort it. Such as i'm not the kind of person who likes to receive orders and i always make a point of demanding my independence. That's just me. Too bad for those people who don't like that about me. But i do make my point clear, i never really do care about what people talked about me especially this year. Yeah, there are compliments which i appreciate it very much or worse, bad gossips about me, whom i think that they could just look at their own self first before judging other people. Randomness, i suddeny talk about all this things 'cause i know it happens. Well, i felt sorry for those people, i'm just too immune to it already. :)

7 years in sports, 5 years in high school. It all seems pretty fast. I am just now going to focus on my priority which is SPM and then i'm gonna look forward for a new beginning next year. Next year would be different because i'm not gonna be in high school anymore. Somehow, i'm not sure if i ever gonna step on my own high school after that. Well, well it's just too early to say that, isn't it?

Let's get back to reality. Actually, i just can't wait to 'retire' already. I'm sick of teacher's demands from me, expecting theirs orders to be fulfilled, never thought about me having my own precious time to be in class. Yes, i know we should look teachers in a good perspective but don't you think sometimes they're gone overboard?? They probably gonna strangle me after they read this but i just have to say this. Sometimes it's just not fair, isn't it? Stii, sorry, i seriously have not bad intention despite everything that i just express here

I'm really just being random now. I can say about a lot of things but there are some few things i rather keep it to myself. This could be even much more longer. Sigghh, tomorrow's Monday already. I always hated Monday. Luck, luck tomorrow.