Gosh, back to school

Sigh.. Back to school.. Gosh, i like holidays.. Although i didn't really go anywhere for the holidays except for Bahang, i still like it thou.. I get to know my new friends better.. We even have adjectives for each other.. Let see if i can remember..

Generous G, Noble Noel, Noticeable Nick, Commited Colyn, Jazzy Jedi, Natural Natasha, Stylish Spencer, Incredible Issaac, Amazing Alex, Sociable Syaz, Valiant Vinilli, Joyful Jude, Random Ralph, Amusing Ann *me*:) , Good Geraldine, Nice Nicole, Greatful Glenn

So that's us.. The KDCA ISCEP of 2008!! Great, i remember all of our names.. There even couples in our groups.. Oops.. i don't think i should say who.. hehe.. I'll be seeing all of them back in 2 weeks at KDCA for our practice.. I'm glad, glad to have them as my friends..
You see, at least, i don't have to wake up so, so early.. Damn!! I didn't even manage to make my ' must do' list done yet.. Which means i still have tons & tons of homework to do.. Uurrggh.. I'm sick of it.. Well, nothing happened in school today.. School are just so much into the national spirit this week since National Day is approaching soon.. It's not like the teachers go to class also. You see, i don't think the school is the problem here.. Its Me ba.. You ask me WWWWHHHYYYY?? ' cause i can see most of my friends are really glad to be back at school.. Not me thou.. I'm just one rebellious teenager who hesitate a lot just because we have to go school.. I really have to buid up my school spirit.. Let just hope i'll get back my school mood anytime soon.. I just need to relax a little & get things to be done fast.. Anyway, let's stop talking about school..

I'm refreshing my memory of the last Saturday.. Yeah, i remember.. Last Saturday, UITM Close Netball was held at the UITM. I have my own team, of course.. There's Sukma, Acya, Manja, Waney, Anis, Farini, Rohana, Mila & surprisingly Eileen.. Yes, Eileen.. We are in the MISS team.. * Hahaha, manager, of course la Miss Tom* Anyway, talking about Eileen, it's really been a long time since i meet her.. Sadly, she just broke up with Timothy few days ago.. * Gosh , it's my fault.. I shouldn't ask about him. It just makes her feel devastated* So, we managed to get 2nd.. 1st was UMS & 3rd was UITM * Yes, we beat UITM..Yeahh!!'*



Alas, meet Eileen.. Miss having training with her..

UMS vs PTPL.. UMS won the game.. We were preparing ourself to warm up.. I get used of meeting UMS always already in the tournament because of the coach.. Dooiii

During lunch break.. Just finish our game against UITM & were really exhausted 'cause of our tie-to-tie game.. But we won.. yeahh.. On da pic was Acya & Anis.. That time, i was having an ankle injury ..* Hate it*.. All the opponents shooters was really either too active , tall or big.. Me & Acya was like shorter than them.. We really worked hard playing defense.

Anyway, that was it.. I hope i can go & hang out this weekends with buddies of mine.. So, hope, really hope i have the spirit to finish my homework tonite.. xxx,A

aaaaww.. he's !5 already..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 'LIL BRO!!

RYN RODERICK A. MANSON IS 15 TOODDAAAAYYY!!

Come to think about it, you're not that little anymore.. How fast time flies isn't it? You're much more taller than me now.. * I feel short sometimes when i stand next to Rick* Well, well, hopefully you have start studying for PMR already.. Despite on our crazy arguements, ok, you might thought this is something rare for me to say but yeah * gosh*, i love you & i do care about you.. You're the only sibling i have in this world & as we grow up, i do hope that we can trust each other more & more.. * Why la me so emotional this?* Think about what you have in life now & appreciate every single thing of it * I think, Eric, you know what i mean, lols*.. So God bless you, bro & Hopefully you have a wonderful day on your b'day since i know you are still so exhausted from that BSMM camp..* Who also ask you to go? hah* Congrats on being Sarjan anyway.. P.s Owh gosh, i'm still trying to think what to get him for his 'BIG 15' day!! sincerely, from your dearest sis, A

My new 'friend' .. :)

"I like 'you'.. 'You' are really fun to play with .. Here's my new friend..
The name's ANGKLUNG.. "

Lols :) I sound crazy, right? Anyway, i learned how to play it today with some of my ISCEP gangs.Trust me, it's fun.. Obviously, it's a traditional instrument.. Well, Angklung is really my new friend since i have to get used to play it for the upcoming month.. Lalalalala .. At least i'm better in this than 'Magunatip'.. Duh.. P.s Met Soong & Kay * handball buddies* just now at their school.. Quite surprise to see them but i shouldn't be actually since it IS their school.. Anyway, i go & zzzz first k.. xxx, A.

*Sobs* My holiday..

Another day of holiday.. *sigh.. My holidays turned out NOT to be holidays.. Hmm funny the way i say it, but sadly, its true. :( As i said before, the thing i wanna treasure my holidays, the part i wanna hang out with my friends, workout & relax, it quite ruined already.. You asked me WHY? 'cause of the KDCA ISCEP thing.. FYI, i have to go for practices every single day of the holiday, & even with the school starting next, i have to go every single weekends.. Even on Sundays.. Aaargh.... I just have to bear with this whether i like it or not..
So, yesterday was our ice breaking session.. But before that, we have to wait for our members from K'ngau & Tuaran..So me, Una & Ralph like walking around the KDCA to fill our time * Time passed very slow during that time..* There are conference happening at KDCA actually.. So that's why there's a lot of people there.. & i found out that Chang was there too... We called Mel 'cause we heard she's coming to KK too.. I'm really glad i met her.. I really do miss hanging around with her & of course Momoy & Mel.. After a while, the ISCEP members went to SMK Bahang.. * Owh gosh, Bahang.. Just hope i didn't bumped to anyone i know there.. You know, the handball players.. Obviously, we can't make our practica at KDCA.. Now let me see, the 20 members of our KDCA ISCEP of 2008.. There's me & Una.. Ralph & Jude.. * Obviously, i knew them.. There's Collin, G, Nick, Issac, Alex, Spencer, Shasha, Sal, Nicol, Syaz, Gedi, Vanessa & owh gosh i forgot the names of the rest of the guys.. Well, we have quite a time to know them.. We really have to know each other 'cause we have to work in one group.. or more likely, family.. That's what they said.. All the members are very nice people actually.. I don't think we will have problem mingle around each other.. Basically, that's all about it yesterday.. I went home feeling very exhausted.. Slept very early.. Anyway, 'cause of that, i really have to find time to finish my homework which is a lot.. Maybe night time revision perhaps.. Gosh.. & as i talked to Miss Tom last night, there are UITM Open for netball this weekends.. Pretty sure it's interesting.. Really wanna watched but nevermind la.. It's not like i can go & watched anyway.. Well, have to go now.. Have to go Bahang later on.. People out there, do treasure your holidays.. Trust me, you should.. xoxo, A.

She 's One Great Human Being!!

YELENA ISINBAYEVA

Wow, this woman is crazy.. Seriously.. She just broke up the world record of athletics pole vault at the Olympics.. I'm totally impressed.. The look of determination on her face after each fail of getting through that 5.05 metre high vault.. At last, SHE MAKE IT!! SHE BROKE HER 14th WORLD RECORD!! The thing that she prove the world, she keep on trying to get up every time she fall..

Admire the way she do it.. She GO FOR IT!!

See how great she is..That is really how people with hard work & great determination grab their success..

How i wish i could be positive like her, mentally & physically in lots of other things... Actually, i'm not that huge fan of her.. But then i really admire the way she go on in the optimistic way..She's one of the best athlete in the world & the best in her event right now.. She really can be an inspirational role model to look up for.. GO YELENA!!

Alas, holidays!! but..

HOLIDAY'S HERE!!

Owh yea, owh yea.. I know i sound craaaazzzyy but you don't know how glad i am that it's finally holiday.. I'm free from school duties for a while *although its only 1 week* but i'm really gonna treasure this holidays, man.. Lalalalalala.. Anyway, i'm not actually free la.. I will start to go KDCA for the preparation to Korea thing.. But because of that, I can't go for the charity trip for Interact at Toboh, Tambunan.. I already planned my games for the kids at the orphanage & sadly i ended up not going anyway.. I'm a bit dissapointed thou but nevermind la.. I can't have everything, right?? So here are my plans for the holidays..

1) Clean & rearrange all the stuff in my room.. * This is to stop all the whining from mum.. But she's right k..My room is damn MESSY!! LOL!*
2) Start getting my school works done.. * I have a lot, seriously.. & if i don't start doing it quick, i might never get it done..
3) Help with the house chores * FYI, i'm the only daughter in my family.. so yeah i kinda know my responsibility & this to stop that blabber from my mum, " Please act like a girl, bla,bla.." You can guess it la..
4) Wash my school & sports shoes. * I always forget to do that.. Always.. hehe.. so must wash them this time..
5) Must go for workout.. * Yes, this is a MUST.. Have to maintain my stamina.. Don't ended up being unfit for the next tournament*
6) Start become an 'angel' in the family.. * well, yeah ann.. stop those arguements with mum & dad.. I know, LAME, right.. But come to think about it, i'm just trying to defend myself, ok.. But yeah, i get the point.. I'm just so stuborn..
7) Have to get all the school stuff done.. Sports reports & so on..

Owh my gosh, this is a lot.. I have to start doing it, or else i will never get my rest.. Maybe the no 6 is hard thou, if you know what i mean.. :( Anyway, nothing much have change thou.. I just wanna to relax & maybe just go hang out sometimes.. For once, i just want to stop thinking complicated stuff & just relax.. I really hope i can get that.. Owh yeah, i have to arrange stuff to donate for the orphanage thing..

Got to go...xxx,A

Sigh..

Guess what?? I'm chosen for KDCA ISCEP to Korea.. I'm so, so excited.. Me & Una.. I thought only one will be chosen & we have to go throu interview.. But.. the next thing i know, both of us are chosen.. No use also i go ask everyone about Kadazan tradition.. I know.. How come i don't know, right? Its in my blood.. Well, I'm just not really knowledgeable about my own race k.. I'm not even that fluent in Kadazan.. But still, I GET TO GO.. & another thing, i might skip the final exam.. I know, not fair, right?! LOL.. Sadly, my own dad don't even have faith on me of getting chosen for this thing.. I & dad not even talking now.. Come to think about it,i don't even feel like talking to anyone in my family now.. I know, i'm a stuborn girl.. But i'm not, you know, bad.. Whatever la.. I'm kinda get used of it already.. For once, i really wanna be happy for myself.. & i can't wait for HOLIDAYS.. although it's only 1 week, still i really wanna get free from school duties for a while.. But i'm not really gonna be that free.. Sigh.. Interact charity trip on the 19th of August, next Tuesday at Tambunan.. Chemistry extra classes at school.. & if i'm not mistaken, i have to start going to KDCA members meet next week... Aaaarrrggghhh... I really just want to rest at home & go out , man.. I wanna hang out with my other buddies.. I've never stayed at home since the previous weekends starting last month because of school stuff & functions... I'm sure mummy are mad because of it.. Ok, come on, ann.. You can do it.. Owh ya, and i have to start thinking about buying a dress for our our school's Interact Installation Nite.. Gosh.. So many stuff to think about.. Ok la, its kinda late already.. Wanna sleep
1st.. God bless us! Wait, hope mum & dad let me go Korea!! I wanna go.. xxx, Ann

Part of my life!! :)

These people are part of my life..

They give me joys. Tears. Laughter. And so on... I can say that i've been throu ups & down because of them.... But do bear in mind that,

I love them..

Each memories i share with them will never fade in me..

My girlfriends & i.. We talk about crappy stuff & laugh a lot..:) There's Chelle, Mo, Jesh, Iris, Iva & me..

Here's me crazy, sasat besties.. Becks, Jane, Farah & me.. Being crazy with them is my good times i know that i will always treasure..

Chang & Momoy.. Sport buddies since budak2 again.. LOL.. Really, really miss them since didn't get the chance to meet them often since they are at Telupid..

My 'ss' cousin.. Sis Cassie haha.
. With her i can share almost everything.. She's always confused.. hahahahahah

My'lil sis & bro, Porgee & Alistair.. Actually, not my real siblings la but they're acting like it.. I really miss them thou.. They can be childish sometimes but I know they always care about me.. No 10 hah, Porgee..

Today at school..

Hmm, normal day at school today.. Lots of homeworks that have to be pass up.. Nothing extraordinary happen today.. Sadly.. What la me dis.. I should be grateful things went quite normally today.. But then , me & my girlfriends always have crappy talks.. You know, about stuff, like guys, school & etc. But about this one, i'm not sure if its crappy since its something about our decisions for next year, our year of SPM.. lalala.. Here goes ,

Me : M, are you going to join EAK next year?

M : Nope. I think i make it clear that i'm not going to join anything next year except for mooting.. I've had enough & I think I really have to stick for my main priority like studies.. SPM next year owh..

Me : Are you serious? Not even debate?

M : Yup, not even debate.

I : I'm going to join debate next year.

M : Good for you. But i speak for myself k.. I think, no matter what i join, the thing is its going to ended up to the more important thing which is studies, of course.. I think my experiences for this years is enough for me in the future.

I : Yeah. I just want experience ba. I jus want to win like 1 round & the rest , i just hope we lose.

Me : Ok, thats what you think.. Its good la.. I speak for myself also ok.. I will still join sports since like sports actually make me appreciate my studies.. Just like now, when i have nothing to do, i ended up feeling so free until i so lazy to study. Especially its like my last year in high school, of course i wanna join since i've been joining sports like since i'm a kid.

* M smiled

I didn't blame them for thinking that way 'cause thats their decision.. Especially when SPM is next year.. I know my priority is also mainly is studies.. But sorry to say, i'm not the kind of people who can stand to be at school & just studying.. To relax, i have to go out, do sports & socialise.. Next year my last year la.. I can't stop sports just like that.. I'm gonna be crazy.. Its my farewell year to everyone.. Not really la but to most of them.. & More importantly, its hard to be a N.E.R.D. With books all the time * sorry, no offense.. I wanna be smart but not in that way. Not without having to socialise.. I never really that impressed with brainies who get all A1's in SPM but just stay at school, doing nothing. C'mon la.. Its our teenage life, we have to struggle in studies, yes, but at the same time, we have to enjoy our young life.. In the future, we'll be like married, working lady & lots of more personal responsibilities waiting for us.. LOL.. OMG!! I just can't imagine.. Well, thats what i think.. Sorry for those who are offended..
Anyway, we have our Interact meeting today( only the Form 4 Interactors).. Talking about our Installation Nite.. ( haha, i'm not even B.O.D) I don't know la.. I used to be really into Interact but sadly, dunno what's wrong with me now.. Maybe I just hate R for mocking the Prefectorial Board Installation.. Excuse me, since when you have the right to do that?? I'm really pissed off but i just hmm, like whatever la.. Don't get me wrong, i still like Interact, & i'm still into it since i'm an Interactor myself.. Its just that i have to not only think about Interact 'cause i too have other responsibilities to lead.. huhu.. if you know what i mean.. It just that a lot of us change.. That is the reason why my perspective over them change too.. Lots of silly excuses.. Let just wait & see what future holds.. I have a lot of thing in my mind now & i have to deal it one by one.. No one can help me... Thats for sure.. 'cause for some weird reasons, it will turn out to be more trouble than good things.. Sorry but like it or not. thats actually the truth.. Well have to go now..
Got netball friendly match later & i have to get ready. Physics tuition is also tonite.. Damn, new, freaky teacher..
P.s i might just crap. so just ignore what i say k.. Its just, well, me.. LOL!! Lame..

xxx, A

Aaarrrrgghhh!!

Well, well, well school was ok.. its just the same ordinary day.. I KNOW.. so BORING owh.. I mean, at first, i'm feeling so glad dat i'm able to spend more time wif my girlfriends.. Unlike the previous years.. I'm always busy especially when i'm having my sports season.. Its either i stucked at the hostel for training or i'm in somewhere hving competitions.. I used to complain, whining
" I miss school.."
" whooahh, i miss my girlfriends.."
But now, * no offense, girlfrends* i feel like so. DAMN. B.O.R.I.N.G..
I mean, i do have fun having my besties side by side.. But, its the homeworks & teachers that make me really annoyed with school.. Sorry for saying this, but seriously i'm so not in the mood for studying now.. I tried really hard but.. aaargghh, its just so damn hard.. My final exam is like in 2 months.. I KNOW, i really have to struggle this time since i'm not really happy with my monthly test result... I'm just not satisfied since its not that good, not enought to give a smile on my face.. Its Physics. Bio. even Moral that get my brain fuzing around.. Actually, all the subjects get my brain fuzing around... Aaarrrgghhh, why is it so hard, man?
Anyway, school is really killing me nowadays... Its either the Prefectorial Board. or
Interact. Compared to the previous years, i'm much into sports then school stuff.. I don't really mind that time 'cause u know, i'm one of the people who just really enjoyed sports.. :) Ok, i know, weird but its just me k.. But this yeah, my sports season ended quite early actually.. Thats why i have, I HAVE TO, join my school programmes.. Sports used to be my excuse, hehe, but now, i don't have any good excuse to like say NO to school..Ooppss, sorry.. I keep saying sorry, man..
But i feel pretty bad by whining about this things.. I pretty much feeling the pressure now..
Especially now, i should start counting the days to O.M.G!! SPM!!! aaarggghhhh!!! Stress!! Stress!! Stress!! No, i shouldn't be stress. Calm, ann, calm.. * That doesn't make me feel any better actually.. Well, the holidays in two weeks.. I really , really can't wait.. I really need to get out from school & just relax...
Its not only that.. Its just i always keep things to myself.. When i said its to hard to trust people nowadays, it is hard.. Not even at people my own house.. Like today, i suddenly blurted out everything to my dad.. ( When we were waiting for Eric) He's pretty shocked, i think.. Its not on purpose actually, i just can stand it anymore.. & I'm a human too, ok.. Still a young girl with feelings, who have a long way to go in life.. Hmm God is really testing me this year.. I'm now holding on to myself n of course, God.. People might think i'm crazy when i alone, but its like my conversation with God.. Its not like i don't trust anyone, its just its my thoughts we're talking about.. Lots of people have judged me, i can feel it.. but tell you what, i don't really care anymore... I just wanna be myself & the only change i will do is for something better... ehh, why suddenly i emotional this??
I miss sports!! I miss all those experiences i've been through with my buddies.. My life in school is totally a different world compared to my life in sports.. haha i miss Porgee.. suddenly, i remember her.. She didn't really call me nowadays, so i just praying for the best of her.. She might be annoying sometimes, but still she one person i know who'll always be at my side, consoling me... ok, now hv to go.. History homework's waiting for me.. *sigh, books, here i come..

xoxo. ann :)