Feeling good?!

I should feel good about myself.
You know, the sense of gratitude. I should have that feeling towards myself 'cause i seldom do.
The fact that i have a family that have been very supportive of what i do,
even with all the arguements that happened before.............
one guy who practically make my life merrier,
and tasting that sweet taste of success recently in the game that i enjoyed the most,
beating Sandakan at last & getting the award as a bonus,
I actually should feel good about myself.
Even despite the fact that 'we' are not talking & the worse thing that had happened,
talking about me behind my back.
That is what i'm feeling pretty bad about the whole thing.
Although come to think of it, it have never been my fault.
And yes, i feel hurt.
Getting the record straight is not hard although how hurtful it could be.
I'm stepping to that building each day with a sigh,
hoping that i will still survive mentally after what it feel like a long, long day.
I took the risk & i dealt with the consequences.
And know what, i have no regrets on doing it.
Well, because for sure, it have never been wrong.
I may no getting all i want and maybe, what i expect,
but like i say before, that's when the sense of gratitude should be rolling in.
It have been tough days, & what it's only February.
At least the coming Monthly Test is not until 6th of March.
Thank God.
But, i'm not sure i'm even taking it with the whole Melaka thing coming on.
Yup, the centralised training.
So, i'm counting on lady luck tomorrow,
hoping me survive for another day.
Surprises come to me every single day,
and one of it, my whole girlfriends join hockey....
God bless them, haha if you know what i mean.
Well, off doing my 'kerja kursus' now................................
Good week to everyone.

GOLD!!!!

So here i am finally back in KK after the whole week at Keningau.
And lemme tell you, this time its biggy. GOODY, NEWS!!
Owh yes, finally GOLD!!
Yes, GOLD FOR THE U18 BARAT NETBALL TEAM FOR MSSS!!
Yes, it's Barat now & not KK. I know, what the heck, right??!
But, i'm too happy too even feel bad about the name.
We finally beat the Sandakan team.
At my final year. Boy, i'm glad.
I thought my Valentine going to be a big bummer, but
hey, he have always supported me & what's better,
i even get this.................................................

BEST PLAYER FOR MSSS UNDER 18 CATEGORY!!

Another collection to my MSSS medals.

So, i was just so worry with me being captain of team & also with the little training we had.
But thank God, we managed to grab GOLD this year.
I didn't even expect the award that i get.
When they said,
" Memegang posisi GD........"
everyone was looking for me, and i didn't want to put my hopes high with me getting it last year,
then, " dari pasukan Barat........"
Boy, am i smiling & everyone was shouting... It was my name.
It's really a blessing for me.
Even Mum, Dad & Eric went all the way to Keningau to support me............
I am really so grateful with all this things i have.
Momoy cried & i do understand why.
Well, they lost and it's their final year.
It is arkward to play against my own best friends with Chang & Momoy plays as partners
against my team. But i do what i have to do
& I GOT MY AIM!
But at least we were more.
chosen again to nationals next month, so i guess they weren't that sad anymore.

18-23rd MARCH 2009- MSSM NETBALL AT MELAKA.

Guess i'm going & it's my final year.
I'm glad my final year of MSSS ended up this way.
WE WON
& that's what matters.
I can go back to school with a big smile now.
Although i was actually feeling quite tired just now.
So, i'm now off to catch up all the homeworks that i missed for the past week!!
Gosh, it's a lot.............
But for sure, i'm not going to get over the memories at Keningau that soon...........

:)

Latest update!! VALENTINE's coming!!

Alas, a chance to blog & improvise it. Thank God.
It finally look similar to normal.
It's a bit plain though, as i see it. But........
that's the least thing i can do because i don't really have time to blog again nowadays with everything that's going around me.
So, what about me lately??
Just finish the 2 papers of EXCEL last week.
And lemme tell you,
IT WAS NOT EASY!!
MORAL & ADD MATHS were 'freakin hard..
But i done my best.
Although somehow A1 or A2 is really imposibble..
Sigh...........
See, i'm sighing again. Have to stop doing that.
Owh yeah before i forgot to tell,
after all the netball riots i have before,
THE FRANSISCAN Under 18 netball team is in TOP 4 this year.
That's really an accomplish for our school even without a proper coach compared to the other schools.
We played hard & somehow, we were proud of ourselves despite the fact that we can get better than that.
Anyhow, 'they' doesnt even care about the u18 team.
And yet, WE DID IT even without them!! HAH!!
So, the dilemma...

12-14 FEB 2008 - MSS SABAH NETBALL at Keningau ( state level)
*Oooh yes, i'm CHOSEN again but again, like every year, the only one in my school.......*
But also on the SAME DATE,
- MSSD KK ATHLETICS
* Sigh................................................*

See, i know what's going to happen.
And i know Papa Jahat is going to show me that dissapointed face of his, which makes feel real guilty.. But HOW??
It's not my fault it's clashed. Again.
It really is not. And obviously, i'm going for netball. No 50/50 again this.
Whatever it, i'm just gonna deal with it tomorrow.
Wish me luck & hope things, at least, on this final year, goes well..
Well...............
VALENTINE IS COMING!!!


And you ask me about that no 6 in my previous list,
nguahahaa HE LOOOOVEEEESSSS ME!!
Hahahaahahaha
Just,
too bad i'm not gonna be with him during that special day.
But still he lurve me....

So off to little revision & early sleep,
netball centralised training starts tomorrow the whole day..

Error! Error!

Hey there.
For those who have reading my blog, i know you realise the changes on my blog.
Well all because of the damn template that i accidentally change.
I can't get my old template before so i just have to live with this one at the moment.
It is still in the middle of adjustment & so on.
So hope you can just deal with it & still enjoy reading it. :p
Wishing everyone have a great week!