'NERD' MODE. ON.

Its funny how imagination can bring you far from the real world. I am pretty vain to be amused with my own dreams that can bring me far from the real world that i'm stepping on. It just makes me smile. But to know that i might never get the chance to grab it, it's just pretty much dissapointing. Yet, i am still not giving up on those dreams despite that it is a fact that it is just too good to come true.
When walking down on the memory lane, it's just funnily weird to bumped to this people and to know that you used to be close to this person. You remember the times you used to share almost everything with him, and yet to see how it turned out to be now, it just so sad. One good thing for sure that have occured is we simply have move on with our own life.

I am so happy to get to see her today. I miss her badly and i'm glad to spent time with her. It's not always you can see her in KK.

Well, EXCEL is going to start soon for the whole three weeks.

I am already turning the 'NERD' mode on which also means that you not going to see me around surfing the net too much. This can be very addictive actually and i'm not gonna let myself become too attuned to it. I am rather called 'geek' nowadays than to be updated with the latest news of anything. I am actually not even bothered on how i looked like nowadays.

And come to think about it,

SPM IS IN 2 MONTHS!!

Ok, i am not stressed. Just worried.
I really need to hold on to myself now 'cause i can be very RANDOM about stuff especially when the 'SASATNESS' started to rush in my blood.

I WANT A'S!!

I wanted to go to the beach and shouted that.

See, isn't the sea so beautiful?
You feel so calm to be there.
SIGGHHHHHHHH.........
Me. Random again.

Well, i'm off to study now. I'm not gonna online much for quite some time now. Maybe sometimes during the weekends just to get rid of the boredom and the 'geekness' for a while.

ADIOS!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

ERIC!! Eric! Eric! Eric! Eric! Eric! Eric! Eric! Eric!
You are turning 16 today, brother.
Another new chapter in life.
And yea, you're growing taller & taller each day.
But then, no matter what, you will always be my little brother.
Too bad you're in camp thou, we can't celebrate your sweet 16. At least i got to give your birthday hug before you enter the camp.
So, here is my 'little' brother, RYN RODERICK.
Its RYN, people. Not RYAN. :p
M only brother who supported me all the way, althought we always fight like cats and dogs.
He's the one who cheered my name when i was on the track,
or when i was on the netball game against his own school.
The one who goes to my room where we can talk all night long and shared some little things that we couldn't bear to tell our parents.
You even skipped school to support me during my 'retirement' day.
You don't know how glad i am to tell people on that day,
that you're my 'little' brother, the only brother that i have, who somehow was there to cheered me all the way during my rought times..
Thanks, Rick and remember that,
YOUR SASAT SISTER SAYANG YOU!! :)

On the road...

Were so damn bored when we were on our going back to Papar. Daydreaming, listening to music and until we become craazzzyyyy..
Seems like he's on a good mood today to be sasat with me...
I was also thinking what to get him for his BIG SWEET 16 day next week...
Any ideas??

Start studying...........

I am somehow motivated with what he told me just now. He makes me thought about my perspective of life in a different way. I guess he was right. Her daughter is real lucky to have a father like him, who will support her in whatever she do in life. Of course all fathers are like that. Yet, when we were looking in my class just now, he was saying something about how most of my friends in our class will surely make plans about studying medical and how most of their fathers might have push their girls to study really, really hard. But he added that everyone want and have to study hard to be successful in life, yet life is not all about becoming successful. There's no meaning in life if you're just successful and you didnt get to enjoy it and be happy. He is so right about that. Its not all about becoming rich and earning a lot of money. Whatever we do, we must really do enjoy it and be satisfied with what you have.Parents should always be supportive and let everything flow on its own. Eventually it will all work out. I'm just glad that my parents never give me much pressure, just continous love and support in everything i do.


As for me, i am still clueless about what i really want to be in life. I don't even know where i should continue to go on for further studies next year.
Do you know that SPM is in 95 day???
Goshhhh... And trials would be in 2 weeks, right after holidays. I am worried but surprisingly, i'm not that worried. Should i be scared with that?? I don't know. My holidays will be all about study, study and constant STUDY. See the picture up, up there?? It should be like that. Continous study but never forget that we still have a life to live.

This is what i should do, isn't it??

Books should be my bestfriends now. There should be in my mind no matter what after this. I'm not gonna play around too much. Time seems to be really, really precious now. See, it's weekend already. SPM students should be really wise with time management now. Dont you agree with me??
I need chocolates :p

Momoy send me this picture. Just looking at it make me miss them even more. Hope to see them after SPM.
Me. Love them.

After SPM...

While on the way going back to kampung last night in the car, my mind was wandering about lots and lots of stuff. It reached one point where i thought about what i wanna do after SPM. Its a wholesome of freedom to me when that time comes and i have maybe around three months waiting up for my SPM result. Unless i decided to got myself into IS for A Levels which it wouldnt be top of my further studies list yet. It's been real rough on me this year and i am so looking forward on having new experiences of fun and also embarking new journey in my next stage of life. But i do have some plans during the whole three months of 'ahh, result,result'. No doubt that i'm gonna dread for my result but i still wanna do something. So here is it

MY PLANS AFTER SPM ( DURING THAT 3 MONTHS DREDING SPM RESULT) :


1 SCUBA DIVING!!!!


This is the first thing that i thought about and really wanna do after SPM. Matt owe me this. I always curious about SCUBA diving and wanted to try myself. Imagining myself in that sea with all this sea creatures... See how imagination can be really weird... Somehow it looks really scary being there, in the bottom. Yet curiosity and amusement overwhelmed me. At least i have one diver who's ready to help me out :)

2 TAKE DRIVING LESSONS & GET A LICENSE!!!!!

Its funny this isn't the first thing that came up to my mind of what i wanna do after SPM. I have always thinking of getting the lessons now 'cause i already started up going for the seminar and took up the computer test. But then, something about Dad said...... "Later, you jalan only that. You don't study.." Right, whatever you said, Dad. Just not worth my energy to argue. But once i get my license, you'll see.....


3 CLIMB MOUNT KINABALU!!

Owh yes, i don't care, i don't care how how hard it takes. I'm still gonna climb it no matter what. It a-must-thing to do after SPM. If i have to go for crazy workouts after this just to climb it also, i would. It's in our freakin state laaa. I'm SOOOOO gonna climb it. Mt Kinabalu, you just wait.

4 TRAVELLING!!

It's in my list,yet i dunno if i get the chance to do it. It's more to have fun going around places and to get out from KK just for a little while after a rough year. A vacation should be niceeeee...

5 HANGING OUT WITH BUDDIES!!

I know after SPM, we'll go separate ways to study. We gonna take our own path to get what we want to be in life. That's one of the main reason why we're gonna spend time and hang out more, even just to do little and simple stuff. Watch movies, window shopping or maybe even just to go for breakfast in the morning..

6 PLAY & TRAIN NETBALL!!

I never going ever to stop play netball because it's just in me. I still have tournaments next year and that why i will continue on training and enjoy playing it. I'm also going to help with the 'Kem Bakat' for netball at Papar next year for little kids. At least something for me to occupy my time with too.. Another reason would be to stay on shape. People tend to gain weight during the whole three months because of too much resting at home and eating all the time. I'm gonna bear in mind to keep on being fit because i like to be one.

6 READING..

And of course, reading great novels after this.. This is when i'm at home or anywhere, doing nothing and feeling bored. I always love reading and hopefully i'm capable of getting myself a lot of new books to read for the leisure time. After SPM...

And owhhh yea, before i forgot..........


7 LOOK FOR A NEW LAPTOP FOR ME!!

Well, mum did say of getting a new laptop for me since i'm going for further studies and all. Mini laptops in mind so that i can bring anywhere i go, even to Starbucks. Easier and lighter. Gosh, i can't wait. A whole new laptop to myself.!!

Well, that's about it. Hopefully i get to do what i plan to do after SPM. 'Cause you never know whats gonna happen, right?? But hopefully i can...... I'm not gonna let it to become plans and stay as plans only. Some of the plans would be my great experiences of life. After all, life is wayyy too short for you not to take risk and hold on too much to yourself..

Just me and you then.

Randomly taken for fun.

A free weekend, at last where by i'm gonna stay at home and going nowhere except for workouts. Yes, i'm going to have me, mentally and physically resting at home...
For once, it feels like heaven just to be at home and i am seriously spending that free time to STUDY!
Mum bought me too many SPM books to be done with so that is what i gonna do this weekend. And maybe some workouts to make me feel like me again. With everyone's not gonna be around this Saturday, its all me alone at home. Just home alone. Just me and my privacy.
I've been really feeling laid down this weeks at school with most teachers not teaching in class. So i pretty much occupied with my own books that have to be done with. Our school been pretty fortunate enough not to be close down with that H1N1 going around. We're been hearing lots of schools been closed because of this influenza for this week. Too bad for them actually. Its not like i really like to go school nowadays. I'm just longing for the August holidays to arrive. But as for them, they still have to go school during the holidays. LOL. For now, i just have to bear going to school, i just have to be patient enough. Some people still can't really accept my 'mind' talking. But then, i don't freakin care anymore. It's their problem, not mine.
So just me and you today, books. I feel like i'm missing someone but i'm not sooo sure about it...

Siggghhhh.... Love, love to everyone..

A busy week, yet great weekend..

SASATNESS, people!!

The past week have been really crazy as there so many that events and things on that particular week. There must be really something special about last week. Formal events, birthday parties and it's also good that i managed to go for SPM Clinic. I got to spent time with lots of friends, near and far, those who i didn't get to see often too.

5K, MKTB SBH CLASS PARTY OF 2009

Glad that Momoy & Oiyoe make it to the party.

Yay, got to spent time with him..

My long time best friend, Brandon Soh. Wrong class this him.

Its Jill & Laurell. They looked real good during the party.

It was a nice class party. Their teachers were really sporting and its nice to meet all my old primary school friends back. Some of them i knew from sports. Seriously, i had fun that night. Its really good to watch the band and played some games.

Next two days, I went for the Spm Clinic and while getting knowledge, i even get to hang out with some friends.

With dearest Idiot, DaI.

It was no doubt a tiring weekend but i get at least to be 'high high' and 'sot sot'. Short word, ' SASAT!! ' Hahahahha. So, anyway, from this day, you gonna see me less online-ing now. Reality check. I am having SPM real soon. So, less time online, more to STUDY. Maybe just once a week. I just have to bear with it laa... Looking forward for a more relaxing, free weekend.

p/s: sory, i know miss some birthday parties. Iwas too occupied baa. I still love you all. Here i would like to wish......

3rd August 2009- MICHELLE CHU CHING MEI, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! 17 today!!!

4rd August 2009- IVA AISHAH MANSOR, you're next in the line to be 17! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

:)